Updates – am I getting better?

A few months ago, I had an anxiety attack that really scared me, I wasn’t breathing well, couldn’t sleep, had chest tightness and palpitations and I was scared that I had a heart attack, so I went to the doctor and cardiologist to take a look – well good news is that it wasn’t heart related and I’m in good health it was just caused by stress and anxiety – partly due to crypto crashing and partly due to breaking up with my gf. I took anti-depressants and am still taking them, and I seem to be getting better.

Safe to say this year has not been good to me so far. I am filled with regrets from not selling my crypto at the beginning of this year. I had the chance to book a $50k profit + send it over to Korea which had a premium on crypto at that time to make another 30-40% profit. Instead I doubled down on my risk, took out 3 loans and attempted to catch a falling knife – and now I’m down $100k+ on my investments. On top of that I lost $2300 because I re-sold a Chanel bag online and forgot to ship the package priority and when it went to Canada, buyer complained they didn’t receive it, I couldn’t refute that claim because it didn’t offer tracking to Canada, and had to give that money out of my own pocket. I also lost a $1000 Camera+Lens because the Renovation movers misplaced it somewhere. In addition to that I was scammed 1.5 ETH ($1200 total) and none of the ICOs I invested in made any money for me – on average I lost like 60-80% when it debuted. All these money issues were a major cause of my depression and anxiety these days.

So good news is I am still getting over that crypto loss (I am still losing a lot but oh well… its just money.. ill make it back), and I’m trying to focus on other things like how to make back that money. However, bad luck strikes again! I was in the process of trying to purchase 1000 GIN to setup a GIN masternode (GIN COIN) and sent it to Crypto-Bridge which was the ONLY exchange where I could purchase it – and lo and behold just THAT day they had an issue with BTC deposits and mine got stuck – been waiting for 5 days so far and no sign of me getting that money. Meanwhile price of GIN has gone up 40%. FML. Seriously I have the worst timing ever or this year really hates me in terms of finances.

In other news, I had to fork over an additional $25k to renovate my apartment and hopefully that sale goes well. I’ve had enough financial problems this year so I hope that’s the one thing that I might actually get in my favor. I am probably going to work for another 2 months… I don’t like my job but my financial issues have forced me to continue working longer than expected.

I also play a lot of video games these days, of course. Far Cry 5 is a great one that I continue to play with my friend these days, as well as some good old school Gunbound as well. In addition I’ve been playing this awesome cyberpunk game with talking dogs and robotic lolitas and all that great stuff in a game called VA1-HA11-A Cyberbunk bartending action and the game is one of the best visual novel type games I’ve played (right next to Stein’s Gate which is hands down the best one I’ve played so far)

VA1-HA11-A on PS Vita
VA1-HA11-A on PS Vita

In addition I’ve obtained a lightsaber! Yes Saberforge has taken 4 months(!) to finally make my Bane Mk II Count-Dooku style curved hilt lightsaber and yes it looks great and it’s awesome.

Saberforge Bane MkII Lightsaber
Saberforge Bane MkII Lightsaber