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  • Goal finally achieved – and 2015: Year in Review

    First of all, some updates:

    -Fallout 4, Starcraft II Legacy of the Void, and Just Cause 3 are amazing games (and Hearthstone league of explorers to a smaller extent). I beat the campaign in all of them.
    -PS Vita games Persona 4 Dancing All night and Steins Gate were two of my favorite stories yet! Yeah I know right, how can a rhythm game have a good story? Well Atlus never fails to deliver. Steins Gate is probably my favorite visual novel yet, involving time travel, an old IBM computer, conspiracy theories, and John Titor. Kept me hooked throughout my Eastern Europe trip. I really enjoyed the anime too, it was fantastic!
    –Yakuza 5 man, its finally out!! I played Yakuza 4 back in 2012 and it was one of my all time favorite games, so really was anticipating the Western release of Yakuza 5, unfortunately PSN only.
    –Undertale, pretty cool retro RPG style game that has a lot of twists in it as well. Its one of the highest rated RPGs of all time.
    -Star Wars the Force Awakens was kind of disappointing. I mean, yes it IS better than the first and second prequels, arguably better than the third one (Revenge of the sith) and/or Return of the Jedi. But for me, its not as good as them. Why? Because the plot was wayyy to similar to Episode 4 A New Hope. I mean, you have the secret plans for something being stored in another droid (BB8 instead of R2D2), Han solo playing Ben Kenobi’s role this time, Luke playing Yoda’s role, Kylo Ren playing Darth Vader’s role, Poe/Rey/Finn playing varying aspects of Luke’s role, and a third death star… yes they re-used it yet again. How the First Order managed to build it in 30 years without the New Republic knowing it, and somehow get destroyed in like a minute is really a letdown. I know they were paying homage to the old trilogy and all but – wayyyy to similar for me.
    -I recently discovered the fantastic “bad movie” The Room and read The Disaster Artist which was hilarious. Glad to see they are making a movie about this weird human being known as Tommy Wiseau.
    –Wilt: Larger than Life. A great biography of the great NBA player Wilt Chamberlain. It leads you to believe just how dominant Wilt was as an athlete, an absolute incredible physical specimen right up to his 50s. After watching Kareem: Minority of One as well, I am still debating over who really was the better player, but one thing is for sure, Wilt had the more outgoing personality. He was definitely the nicer more considerate guy overall, whereas Kareem tends to be more introverted and apathetic towards people. They are both arguably the GOAT, MJ notwithstanding.
    -I moved to a new place. Smaller, cheaper, but simpler and cleaner. Its an “officestel” which is an old office converted into a condo type of place near Seoul university. Plus, utilities are all included, and there’s a gym as well! sweet. Heres a pic…

    new officestel
    new officestel

    And finally the big one…
    I finally found a Korean girlfriend!! Yes, after one year of searching, and literally 2 days before I went back to Canada I found her, and finally my goal for this year has been accomplished (albeit 2 weeks before the year ends). Sweet, gentle, kind, nice, beautiful, loving, caring, I can’t say enough.. I found the perfect woman. Its a shame I had to leave her so soon, as I already booked the ticket back to see my family though :(. But wow… what a relief. I was afraid that I would have to tell my parents I failed. Now I just hope I can maintain this relationship for a while. I’m so tired of meeting people…

    Now onto the review…

    Highlights
    -I found a gf!! yay!! finally…
    -My Korean has improved to the point where I can talk to people (like my gf) entirely in Korean only
    -I was able to find a new place to move to by myself
    -Two of my American friends (both from California) moved to Korea around the same time as me, so I’m grateful to have them to hang out with for most of the year, although one of them moved back now.
    -Eastern Europe trip was fantastic!

    Lowlights
    -Didn’t learn that much at work so far, wish I could’ve learned more ReactJS
    -Didn’t establish alot of connection with co-workers due to remote work
    -Working at nighttime still kind of sucks even though its Korea because work hours for most businesses is still 9-6ish
    -I spent too much money this year on collecting useless gadgets
    -going back and forth between the US, Canada and Korea all the time (4 times this year) takes a huge toll on my body and this year my body’s sleeping schedule has definitely not been normal, which affects my health.
    -My stocks took a huge beating this year. My losses this year are about $3000~ in the market.
    -I met ALOT of new people and Koreans at meetups due to focusing on finding a gf for much of this year, and sadly, didn’t connect with most of them. I scrolled through most of my conversations and realized most of them are pretty useless just a few texts and alot of girls who ignored me.
    -I got rejected by 10+ girls this year… which sucks. I thought I would never find a girl who likes me until just a few days ago.

    Summary
    Didn’t feel like I made alot of progress in my life this year. The majority of it, I spent working, but didn’t learn that much at work. Met alot of new friends and alot of girls, but didn’t talk much to most of them, and most girls rejected me. Only had a lasting connection with a few friends I met this year. Until just a few days ago, I was very depressed and frustrated because I felt like I wasted alot of time this year doing nothing and getting no results.
    And the more time moves away from 2012 and 2013, the more I want to go back to those times. Where I met good friends all the time, and traveled a lot, and was with my best friends in SF. Alas, I can’t go back. I realized that at the time 2013 I didn’t appreciate that year as much as I should.
    In retrospect, 2013 was a great year. I went to alot of parties, met alot of friends, went to Korea for the first time which was amazing and changed my life, and of course 2012 was the year I will always hold in my heart as my favorite year of my life so far; the people I met that year I still continue to keep in contact with to this day.

    I felt like I was cursed for the majority of this year not to find a girlfriend.. I did everything go to meetups, search on online websites, blind dating, use apps like Tinder and OKC, be really considerate, buy gifts, pay for them, etc nothing worked. Even when I felt like I had a really good conversation with them, I never got a second date which really depressed me.
    So, now that I met my gf recently, I feel that this curse has finally been lifted, and next year, will be the year which this year should have been. This year was essentially just leading up to this moment. A year of preparation basically. But I can’t say that this year has been as good as 2012, 2013 or 2014 for me. Its more like 2011 in the sense that I moved someplace new and had to adjust. An adjustment year if you will.

    Videos
    Holiday cheer…

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMwtn0j4xNk

    I have DJI Phantom 3 drone now. Check out this nice video I took in Seoul at night:
    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hnpvk4eRGCw

    Rehashed alot of my old videos for this homage to my old California life (2011-2014). I miss my old house parties.

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KJIYicakwKM

    I still have a bunch of videos waiting to be uploaded but I can’t due to Youtube’s ban on me from my copyright violation back in July. I have to wait until end of Jan to upload videos longer than 15min which sucks.

  • Work, gaming, Paris attacks

    Well, I haven’t seen sunlight in about 2 weeks. Seriously, I may be becoming a vampire now.
    I’ve been working pretty hard lately, fixing bugs late into the night. Just a few days ago, I worked 14 hours and fixed 13 bugs in one day. I’ve learned alot about using AngularJS, and specifically dealing with promises and promise handlers, using the Angular $q library (which is different than Kriskowals Q library), not using the $q at appropiate times, and dealing with error and success handlers in the service vs controller layers. This is kind of saddening because we are transitioning to using the Facebook React framework instead and its completely different. I admit it looks pretty daunting and about half of it is because ECMA6 is just so different than ECMA5, it has a bunch of new functional notations which I am not used to at all.

    That aside, I’ve been playing Fallout 4 and Starcraft 2: Legacy of the Void with the little free time that I do get, and I love those games. Seriously, I bought the collectors editions for both. That’s only something I do with games I really like. I have the collectors editions for SC2: Heart of the Swarm, Diablo 3: Reaper of Souls, Blazblue Chronophantasma, Persona 4 Dancing all night… and thats pretty much it. I did unboxing videos on youtube for all of these, and will do for F4 and SC2 LOV as well next time I get back to San Francisco. Oh, and Hearthstone (now with the League of Explorers expansion), which I always play in short bursts. Oh, and Star Wars: Battlefront and Assassins Creed Syndicate aren’t bad either, though I play them slightly less than SC2 and F4. Is this a blockbuster gaming holiday season or what?

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xWEtGv7HhnE

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PvMSWhbQBk

    I have been in Korea for almost a year now, which is crazy. I never thought it would pass by this fast. I will put my thoughts on this year overall in my end of year review, but for now I have to look for a new place, cause the current place I’m living now is too expensive. I also had thoughts about moving back to California, or someplace else given that I could work from anywhere, but the pros-cons of the situation came down to this: Korea has cheaper cost of living, better nightlife, considerably more beautiful women, and fast convenience for everything. The cons is that I don’t speak the native language well, its hard to make friends/lasting relationships here, and my working schedule is nocturnal here. The pros of the US/Canada is that I have the convenience of speaking English having more accessible healthcare, my friends there are more free and have more time to meet, and California weather is definitely better (but not Canada’s). Though, in the end my primary concern is making friends and relationships, and thats pretty hard anywhere as I found out, and not that much easier in California/Canada either as I experienced last year. I might be lonely in Korea, but I was also lonely in California last year. So… continue for one year more in Korea and then I will re-evaluate the situation again next year.

    And the other thing that went on recently is the Paris terrorist attacks, which is all over the news and Facebook. I commented on this in Facebook, and being the type of person that doesn’t always post positive opinions on everything, I said:

    Guys, while the attack on Paris is surely terrible, these kind of terrorist attacks happen all the time in the middle east, pakistan, and just a few months ago in Tunisia. In fact there was one that happened right before Paris at Beirut! I don’t think those ever get as much coverage as attacks on Western countries. Listen, I know people losing their lives is awful, but I don’t believe that anyone losing their life in Paris is *more* awful than someone losing their life somewhere else.

    Everyone’s death is equally awful. It was the same when the Boston marathon bombings happened, and a Chinese earthquake happened around the same time which killed 10,000 Chinese. Which one got more coverage? Oh right, the 3 people that died in America. We should strive to get equal news coverage of these events, not just the events that happened in the “more important countries”. I don’t think thats fair.

    Right now, people around the world are ‪#‎prayingforParis‬ and changing their Facebook pics if something like this happened in China or India do you think people around the world would ‪#‎prayforChina‬ and change their profile pics to communist red? I don’t think so.

    And I stand by that statement. Its ridiculous that people are all changing their profile pics to french colors. What does that do? It doesn’t bring back anyone who died, and it serves no purpose other than the fact that ok, you read the news and you feel for the people who lost their loved ones. Ok, well that just means you didn’t care about all the other times people lost their loved ones in other terrorist attacks that happened in the world. Cause you didn’t change your profile pics those times. But this time is special right? Cause it happened in an “important country”, like USA, UK, France, Germany, etc this just validates my belief that people care way more about media events in Western countries than other countries in the world. Everyone deserves equal coverage.

  • NBA Finals, E3, Revelations

    Time for an update again.

    Kobe's not better than Lebron anywhere, even the clutch
    Kobe’s not better than Lebron anywhere, even the clutch

    First off, the NBA Finals where the Golden State Warriors beat the Cleveland Cavaliers 4 games to 2. Lebron James was definitely the MVP of this series, he averaged 37/13/9 this series and still lost because he had no supporting cast, yet people are just gonna look at it as ‘oh Lebron lost again he’s now 2-4 in the Finals so he sucks more than Jordan/Kobe’ (btw why don’t people talk more about John Havlicek who was 8-0 in the finals??). Which is too bad, I feel sorry for Lebron, he just didn’t have good teams, in 2007 had a crap squad, 2014 injured D-wade, now 2015 no K-love or Irving.
    Many people know that I’m not a Kobe lover, so I just get a bit peeved whenever people say Kobe is better, because the only thing he has over Lebron is rings, everything else awards/stats Lebron trounces Kobe. And those 5 rings Kobe played with a good team, a prime Shaq for the first 3, and Gasol/Bynum/Odom/Fisher/Artest for the other 2, those are all good teams. If Lebron played with those teams he would get more rings than Kobe for sure.
    And Lebron is more clutch, despite what people may say. Check these articles out.
    http://swishnba.com/tag/the-truth-about-kobe-in-the-clutch/
    http://fivethirtyeight.com/datalab/lebron-may-be-the-most-clutch-playoff-shooter-of-his-generation/
    http://swishnba.com/tag/the-truth-about-kobe-in-the-clutch/
    A career 28/9/7 playoffs player isn’t clutch? Gimme a break.

    Fallout 4 Pipboy edition? You bet I got it
    Fallout 4 Pipboy edition? You bet I got it

    Second off, the E3 conference this year was amazing. Doom 4, which looks similar to the old school Quake, is coming soon. Fallout 4, which I’m super-excited for because Fallout 3/New Vegas were some of my favorite games of all time. Just Cause 3 and Deus Ex Mankind Divided for the same reasons. Last Guardian, Shenmue 3 and FFVII Remake were all nice surprises, as all three fans have been clamoring for years. Star Wars Battlefront, another remake of a beloved series, and hey why not new Star Fox and Zelda games as well, as well as Super Mario creator. New Halo games, Gears of War, Minecraft Hololens edition, Assassins Creed, Kingdom Hearts 3, etc so many great games came out from this years E3. So excited.

    Alright, and finally a personal topic. A couple months ago I was very depressed about not being able to get a girlfriend. Now, even though I still don’t have a girlfriend, I’m not as depressed anymore. Why? Because I’m not as frustrated anymore. Now, I’ve been in Korea for over half a year now, and many people thought that my obsession with finding a Korean girlfriend was a temporary obsession, but as in the case of most of my goals, I like to think there’s a reason for everything, and even bad luck that occurs often enough isn’t really bad luck. So I really tried to analyze and break things down into pieces to help achieve my goals.

    Firstly, even after 6 months in Korea, I still have the same high respect for Korean girls as before and still think they’re the most perfect women for me. That hasn’t changed. They are incredibly beautiful both on the outside and inside. I even have a higher appreciation for them than before after observing them for so long. Not only do they have a great sense of fashion and care alot about their appearance, but they have a great personality too. They are really kind and sweet to their boyfriends, and to strangers. Every time I met a Korean girl for coffee or even dinner she paid for me even after I offered to pay for her. They’ve offered to guide me, show me around, help me out with something, they are just really polite and nice people. I haven’t met a ‘bad girl’ yet.
    Furthermore, they do lots of things for their boyfriend like buy them chocolates, help them put on their clothes, help clean them, and do really cute things like cover their mouth when they laugh, take couple pictures and hold on to them lovingly on the street, putting their head on their bf’s shoulders when they are tired, etc.
    They don’t seem to care about their bf’s appearance or money judging from the large numbers of beautiful women with not so handsome guys who live at home with their parents.
    They are very loyal, some of them wait 2 years(!) for their boyfriend to finish the military service.
    And in addition, (traditionally) they do the cooking, housework, taking care of baby after they marry. So whatever. They’re perfect. Can’t get much better than a beautiful, sweet kind girl who makes me dinner after I come home.

    I’ve had very little relationship experience. Mainly because during high school, I didn’t find (and still don’t find) western girl’s personalities very compatible with me. During university, no time to date, always studying, and was in a major that didn’t have many girls (computer science). During my time working in San Francisco, I’ve been pretty stubbornly loyal to Korean women, and basically dismissed all other girls, and that’s why I’ve been single for 3 years, and have so little experience.

    I’ve tried to understand why for all my appreciation given to them, I’ve gotten so little back from them. During my time in SF, I’ve had no less than 4 cases where a Korean girl basically shafted me (usually for a Korean guy).

    -Helped a girl with her work letters alot (I mean pages and pages worth) and helped secure her an internship in SF. She later dated a Korean guy in SF and cut off contact with me.
    -Went to San Diego with a girl, and helped her find an internship in Bay Area. She later dated a Korean guy and cut off contact with me.
    -Talked with a girl online everyday and even went to Vancouver just to see her. She got angry at me for a misunderstanding while I was there, I couldn’t meet her, and she cut off contact with me.
    -Helped a Korean girl stay longer in SF by letting her stay at my place for a week and letting her use my bed while I slept on the sofa. She went back to Korea later, started dating a Korean guy and cut off contact with me.
    -Numerous times in Korea including helping girls with their essays / buying many drinks and dinners for them / helping them do many things but in the end they got a Korean boyfriend…

    I don't want to be a player, I just want to understand
    I don’t want to be a player, I just want to understand

    But now I realize the reason for me is mainly because 1) I’m too “soft”, 2) I’ve had very little relationship experience, and 3) I’m not very emotional. The second one is a catch 22. The less experience you have, the harder it is to get a girlfriend. The less girlfriends you have, the harder it is to get experience.
    The other two I realized after I read that book. Most women in the world prefer strong guys who are able to make decisions well, handle affairs, have social ‘power’ and are able to be tough in most situations while being emotional in certain other situations. Women connect emotionally, and unfortunately I usually display very little emotion when I’m talking to people. I am a funny person, though I’m not outwardly funny. My jokes tend to center on the very random, or the very inside / wordplay kind. Neither of which connects with Korean ladies.

    In addition, being raised as a Chinese guy, we are usually raised to be too nice to girls, basically as a doormat. Chinese women are traditionally very strong, (I have no idea why they are so strong and Korean/Japanese women are not), and my parents are no exception. My mother, grandmother and aunt are all very strong and take control over my dad/grandfather/uncle. I don’t like women who are too strong, and thats one reason Chinese women are not compatible with me (among various other reasons). But yes, I was raised to be soft, and this is primarily why Chinese men can’t get Korean girls; because ultimately Korean girls like strong men, Korean guys are more aggressive and Chinese guys are just too weak.
    This is also the reason why my friend seems to be able to get girls to like him on the strength of his talking and social skill alone, without any other factor like stable job, good korean ability, etc. He can connect emotionally and make decisions well. I can’t.

    But this part of me is hard to change. Personality is hard to change. The way to connect is to be more social, connect emotionally, be comfortable, and yet display some intention of attraction. I’ve been either too comfortable with women without displaying any intent (this leads to alot of “friends” but no gf), or displaying attraction too fast without making any emotional connection (this leads to alot of ignored messages). And yes I have too many female Facebook friends. The reason is because I have to meet girls continuously to meet the right girl I want. And some of them ask for my Facebook, and I feel bad if I defriend them after. But other girls see this and think I’m some player or playboy or something. Anyways, its hard to meet the right person and make connections in Korea when all the meetups I go to, you only meet someone once and its hard to keep in touch with them after, even if I get their facebook or kakao id.

    Videos
    Yup, made lots of gaming videos these days. Check them out!

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDTaQwdtAJg

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IhMGB6E1jGg

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZDWDfJyUBAw

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JdmHWd6EnTA

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdIIiDumf6g

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nm1seYJMa4U

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u8t-DttyOdY

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpKo6brBz48

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_qSst5yEJg

    httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z50fQxa2T14