Only Fear can defeat Life

“Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unerring ease…you dismiss your last allies: hope and trust. There, you’ve defeated yourself. Fear, which is but an impression, has triumphed over you…you must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don’t, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you.”

What is it about me these days? I can’t seem to find a job, girls avoid me like the plague, my marks are continually dropping in school, I just can’t seem to find success anywhere. I must say that I am hopelessly frustrated with my life. I want to be able to get somewhere. This year was a waste. I sat in front of the comp all day when I could’ve been out there earning money or meeting new people. And now it’s too late. Is there no justice in this world? I ask you. Is there no justice? Everyone else can find success in the blink of an eye, but for me, bad luck just seems to follow me wherever I go. Cruel Irony surrounds me, and its unbearable. I want to have alot of money…I want to be social…I want my parents to be proud of me…Is that so much to ask?