Discovering Old flicks

While I’ve been struggling a lot with anxiety and depression this year (due to crypto troubles + breaking up with gf), the doctor prescribed me antidepressants for me, and although they’ve helped me sleep easier, one side effect is that they make me quite tired every day. As a result when I finish work everyday, I just go home, lie on the bed and watch a few movies until I drift to sleep. I’m tired almost the whole day.

So I’ve been watching a lot of old time American movies these days from the 40s and 50s. I love these old classics, they take me back to a different time when everyone wore suits and dresses and behaved so classy. Some of the movies I’ve watched recently are The Big Sleep (1946) with Humphrey Bogart, Notorious (1946) with Cary Grant and Ingrid Bergman, A Place in the Sun (1951) with Elizabeth Taylor and Montgomery Clift, Rear Window (1954) with Grace Kelly and James Stewart, Sabrina (1954) with Audrey Hepburn, William Holden and Humphrey Bogart, On the Waterfront (1954) with Marlon Brando, Gentlemen prefer Blondes (1953) with Marilyn Monroe and Jane Russell, East of Eden (1955) with James Dean and Julie Harris, High Society (1956) with Grace Kelly, Frank Sinatra and Bing Crosby, North by Northwest (1959) with Cary Grant, The Man who shot Liberty Valance (1962) with James Stewart and John Wayne and Breakfast at Tiffanys (1961) with Audrey Hepburn.

A lot of these are classics, and I’m glad I rediscovered a lot of these golden age American cinema classics while I am basically bed ridden these days after work.

Things are not looking good so far

On Jan 1, 2018 it was hard to imagine things turning out the way that it has these days. At the beginning of the year, I had made over $50k on the crypto market, and I had the opportunity to make an additional 40% ($20k) by transferring it to my Korean gf’s crypto account that she made for me and selling it in Korea, since Korea was trading crypto at a 40% premium at the time. I was on pace to having the best financial year of my life, and I had a beautiful, sweet, loving Korean gf who was waiting for me in Korea. All I had to do was transfer it to Korea, sell everything, quit my job, move to Korea, and I was set.

Easy right? Well not so much. I was reluctant to sell my crypto assets because I was too greedy. All my friends had made more money in crypto and I was envious. I wanted to make more. I didn’t trust my gf fully enough because we had only dated for a few months at that time and I felt uneasy transferring such a large amount to her bank account. I wanted to make just a little bit more on the arbitrage before transferring it. I wanted to get a loan so I could dump more in it and take advantage of the arbitrage. I called my bank and they were unwilling to offer me anything. I tried another bank and they declined as well. Frustrated, I began looking online for anybody that would give me a loan. As luck would have it, I found three lenders, who were willing to lend me $85k in loans but the problem is – the loans came in too late. By the time the loans arrived, the South Korean justice minister announced a crackdown in crypto, slashing the premiums down by half. I was devastated. I decided to put the loans into crypto anyways, since the market was dipping, and wait for the premiums to go back up.

It never did. I watched in horror as the crypto market slide 30%, then 40%, then 50%, then all way down 70% – taking down more than $150k worth of my savings+loans with it. That’s where I am right now. I had the opportunity to be up $70k but now I’m down $150k. That’s a $220k swing. Crazy right? To make matters worse, the Chanel bag I bought for my gf, she didn’t like it so I sold it on eBay instead. I didn’t know mailing options that well – I chose first class instead of priority shipping. What I didn’t know was that first class mail does not offer tracking in Canada. So the bag inevitably became lost, the buyer asked for their money back and now I’m down a further $2300 because of my stupid mistakes. What’s more – because of the crypto downmarket and the loss of all this money, I had to work longer in the USA. I originally had planned to be out of the USA and back to Korea by April. The crypto downturn set me back 2 years worth of salary. But obviously I cannot work another 2 years, so I settled on working another 2 and a half months instead.

The tension of the long distance relationship got to my gf and she threatened to break up with me several times. Even now, our relationship is all but certain to fail. In addition she closed our crypto account in Korea. Even if the premium goes back up, I cannot take advantage of it anymore. Also alot of my money is now stuck in ICOs – because I took even more risk, all that money is basically tied up and lost at this point.

So I went from having potentially $240k in savings (yes my savings are only worth $20k now + the $220k I would have gotten), the opportunity to live in Korea without working and living with the girl that I loved – to having next to no savings anymore, no crypto account in Korea, no way to get funds to Korea, and an imminent breakup with my gf. How much can change in just 3 months right? Depressed doesn’t begin to describe me anymore.. it was my fault, lesson learned, don’t be too greedy, don’t take too much risk.

My love affair with video games

People who read my blog and watch my youtube can conclude a few things about what I like: I like technology, I like computers, I like guitar and music, and I like video games. I’ve already talked somewhat about technology, gadgets and guitars on my blog, so now time to talk about video games and my history with them:

Computer games and video games were basically what got me interested in programming; My dad was a programmer and he was also kind of a tech geek as well, he bought the latest powerful computers (at that time was a 486 IBM PC I believe), and he always bought me and my brother CDs and floppy disks full of cool DOS games. My mother was never a fan of games and she always thought it interfered with our studies, but my dad was the one who got me into computer science and programming. I remember playing all these cool and obscure DOS games on these CDs, which were often full of things like 50+ shareware titles etc. Thats how I became acquainted with such classics as Doom, Duke Nukem 3D, Commander Keen, Shadow Warrior, Rise of the Triad, Xargon, Jill of the Jungle, and a host of other games usually by Apogee, Epic Games or Sierra. I still have fond memories of those games to this day. I think my favorites are still Rise of the Triad, Shadow Warrior, Traffic Department 2192 and Dark Sun shattered lands.

In elementary school, everyday after classes I would go to my childhood friend’s house and play Goldeneye 007 on his N64. That was the best multiplayer game at that time and we must’ve played 100s of hours worth of that game.

For video game consoles, my mom wouldn’t let me get one until I was in high school. In high school, I was allowed to have my own computer (Dell Inspiron 7500 laptop) as well as the original Xbox console. I played a lot of Gunbound and Ragnarok Online when I was in high school, almost to the point of becoming an MMORPG addict. I wouldn’t even play the game, I would just go online to chat with my online friends on there. That’s how I made a lot of friends back then, due to how shy I was in person.

On the Xbox, I would play Soul Calibur 2, Halo, Halo 2, and Call of Duty 3 with my friends. As well as GTA III and GTA Vice Citywhich was released on the Xbox a little later after the PS2 version as well as exclusives like Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic and Jade Empire. Back then, LAN parties were actually LAN parties because every game had split screen multiplayer. Halo 2 was definitely the game I played the most with my friends in high school.

In university, I would meet new friends at my computer science program, and they would often play fighting games like Super Smash Bros Melee and Street Fighter IV. I was never good at fighting games but I was pretty decent at Rock Band and Guitar Hero, which were all the rage back in those days. I would also go back to my hometown during holidays and play Halo 3 and Call of Duty 4 with my old high school friends. I would also play Magic Online a lot (those were the old days when Magic Online had the great 2 headed giant format.. I sorely miss it).

I would also bring games back home to play with my brother. In elementary school and high school we would play various obscure 2 player DOS games like Liero, Gladiator, The Ultimate TK, C-dogs, emulated games like DBZ Hyper Dimension, Final Fight 3, Super Double Dragon, Battletoads, Gunstar Heroes, Gundam Wing Endless Waltz, Metal Warriors for SNES, and Starcraft 2 Marine Arena and Rise of Legends together.

During university, I also had a modded Playstation 2 and modded Xbox 360. The reason being that I was poor in those days, and didn’t have enough money to buy games, so I just burned all my games and played them on modded consoles. Persona 3 and Timesplitters Future Perfect for PS2 and for Xbox 360 too many to remember.

After I graduated, I finally made more money, and bought the Playstation 3 and Playstation 4. Me and my good friend / coworker would play a lot games together, but usually basketball games, wrestling games or fighting games like NBA 2K or Marvel vs Capcom. On the PC, I would play Farcry 4 and Borderlands with my other friend as well. Some of those sessions are available on Youtube.

So thats my history with video games. Some of my favorite games are FPS or RPG games. I love Goldeneye 007, Halo 2, Duke Nukem 3D, Star Wars Battlefront 2 (the old one), Starcraft & Starcraft 2, Timesplitters, Persona series, Chrono Trigger (the best RPG ever still IMO), Knights of the Old Republic 2, Fallout series, Deus Ex series, Farcry series, Borderlands series, The Sims (I used to rec-create all my friends/classmates/coworkers) starting from Sims 2, Saints Row series, Liero, and Sleeping Dogs (a game I REALLY wish they would make a sequel to).