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Why do people judge who I am attracted to?

So its not a secret that I like Korean girls. I am really attracted to them, to the point where I can pick out the most attractive girls to me even while I’m traveling in Europe and other Asian countries and 99% of the time they will inevitably be Korean girls.

It might be a genetic attraction, but its also no surprise to anyone who knows me. I studied Korean really hard for 3 years back in 2012-2014 mostly because I wanted to have a chance to date Korean women. Then I moved to Korea in 2014 and lived there until 2016. Since then I’ve gone back to Korea every year for at least a few weeks at a time or more.

To me, Korean girls are the most attractive women in the world, not only by their physical beauty, but also their personality. Appearance wise, They have amazing fashion sense, always wear makeup and care about their appearance and personality wise, they are really polite and sweet and care about their boyfriends a lot. What more can you really ask for? They’re beautiful inside and out.

But it isnt easy to date them. Even when I was in Korea, and even though I speak Korean better than most foreigners, its always been difficult getting a Korean girl to like me. I’m not exactly sure of the factors, but it could be a combination of several: 1) I’m introverted and I don’t exactly approach girls very well nor am I a good conversationalist and 2) I cannot stay in Korea a long time usually only a few months at most and 3) some Koreans have very conservative parents who only want their daughters to marry Korean men.

Why not find a Korean girl abroad you may ask? Because the Korean girls abroad are mostly students, young, and will go back to Korea. Plus, most of them stick with Korean guys still (usually from the same school). It’s been difficult to meet the right Korean girl even in Vancouver. I thought I would have an easier time here since there’s more Korean girls in Vancouver than San Francisco, but no as it turns out, although theres definitely more Korean girls here, it just means that there’s more of them ignoring my messages to meet them rather than actually having a better chance of dating them.

I kind of regret breaking up with my ex, which I did for various reasons the main one being that she was not mentally stable, but I still enjoyed the times we had together and she was at least at first glance perfect for me both appearance and personality wise. She was very beautiful and slim and feminine, and also very sweet and caring to me. But unfortunately partly due to the long distance, it didnt work out between us. I still think about her a lot. Especially since I have no idea if and when I will ever find another Korean girl that will care about me the same way again.

Which brings me to my biggest annoyance about being single, the fact that people are unwilling to help me meet another Korean girl, and instead question my Korean preference. I don’t really understand why this is such a big deal to people. So here’s the gist of things: apparently a “normal” person is supposed to be attracted to many different races, but its “weird” if I’m only attracted to Korean girls. Why is it weird? I still dont understand that. Every person is different, we are all born with different preferences on who we are attracted to.

To me, being only attracted to Korean girls is a sign of loyalty, faithfulness and devotion. The fact that I know exactly what kind of girl I want is to me a good thing. There are lots of white guys on the other hand who have ‘yellow fever’ and who are attracted to a whole litany of Asian women, not knowing exactly what they want only the vague idea that the girl has to be ‘Asian’ and possess ‘exotic’ features perhaps driven by a fantasy of ‘submissiveness’ or something like that. And they fuck around all the time in Asia. But they never get criticized for having yellow fever. Or Korean men for that matter, who often fuck around with different girls mostly from SE Asia or white girls “for fun” and they get a pass from Korean women despite that. The irony right? Korean women are loyal to Korean men (who are not loyal to their race), over me (who is loyal to Korean women and Korean women only). But I am the one seen as a creep and they are the ones seen as “normal” for fucking around with all those different girls. Go figure.

Meanwhile me, who was born in northeast China in a province right next to Korea, I get questioned and criticized repeatedly because I only like Korean women. Why? Is it really that much of a shocker? I am also Asian, I like Asian women, and specifically I like Korean women because of the Confucian traditions in their country combined with having common interests due to having lived there and having studied their language before. Why is it such a crime for me to only like Korean girls and knowing what kind of girl I want?

This is especially infuriating because since I am 30 now I am looking for a girl to marry. I don’t want to play around. I know exactly what kind of girl I want to marry and that is a Korean girl. I find it laughable that other people who are not me, somehow feel the need to judge me, criticize me and suggest or recommend me other races that I should be attracted to. What the hell? They think I am weird because I’m not attracted to my own race. Why do I have to be attracted to my own race? Especially since said race (Chinese) completely abandoned their Confucian values decades ago when they became Communist, and are brainwashed by their government to boot. Why would I be attracted to people who have completely different cultural values to mine?

Korean girls from Korea (I have to note the from Korea is important, since Korean American girls have American cultural values which are not really the type of values I want to marry into) have traditional Confucian values due to their upbringing in their society. That’s the kind of values I want to instill into my family and future children. I want my future children to speak English and Korean. I don’t really care about China or Chinese at all since I have no cultural ties with that country anymore. I have confirmed this for myself several times when traveling between Korea, Japan, China, Canada and USA. Make no mistake, Korea and Korean women are the best fit for me.

I just find it incredibly frustrating that the first question people ask me when I tell them to help me find a Korean girl is not “I have some friends to introduce you, when are you free?” But “Why do you like Korean girls? Do you have some weird fetish? Why not Chinese/Japanese/Canadian/etc” we should be beyond a society where this kind of discriminatory questioning comes up. Would this kind of question be asked if I was a Korean or Korean-Canadian guy? Why does it matter to you who I like? It’s my preference. Why do you think you know more about my attractions than I myself do? It doesn’t make any sense, yet it pervades everyone I talk to, thus I cannot ask anyone to help me out for finding a Korean girlfriend, I’m mostly on my own, which sucks.

And its difficult, make no mistake. I can only go back to Korea a few months out of the year at most, and as mentioned before the Korean girls abroad are very difficult to get for me. Nevertheless, I can’t give up and I’ve said to myself before I’d rather be a lifelong bachelor than to give up on this dream and goal. I either marry a Korean girl or I’ll stay single. Thats how determined I am.

Review of [Our World Is Ended] (for Nintendo Switch)

Platform: Nintendo Switch
Developer: Red Entertainment
Release: Apr 18, 2019
Price: $60 USD

I just finished playing Our World is Ended and I would like to give my ending impressions of it.

The main members of Judgment 7 enjoying a BBQ


First off, there’s about 16 chapters and the total game takes around 20 hours to finish. The plot is sci-fi / mystery and deals with AR and VR, so it takes a lot of inspiration from The Matrix and Steins Gate. When you first start up this game, the perverted humor might turn off some. This game makes endless comparisons of breasts, breasts and more breasts. Just be aware of that. Yes it gets annoying, but if you throw that aside there’s actually a pretty interesting story behind here. The first half of the game is much more focused on this perverted humor, while the second half really picks up the pace on the plot so don’t feel discouraged about the humor. Also keep in mind that in Japan, the age of consent is 13 (not that this game has any really erotic scenes).

The main characters are game developers for a game company called Judgment 7. Pretty soon you find out that you, Reiji Gozen, are an assistant director for the company to replace a former director of the company called Reina Ichinose. The company’s next game called World End Heaven has been announced, but the main programmer Sekai Owari has developed an AR device that eventually thrusts everyone into a VR world dubbed the ‘New World Experience’. These VR adventures, along with the relationship between you and the six other characters of the company, as well as the mystery behind who Reina is and what happened to her, are central plot points.  There are a few notable plot twists in the story, and I’m going to spoil anything, but I will just say that I thought I got a ‘game over’ several times in the story but actually didn’t so make sure you keep going on no matter what.


The main characters of the game are the 7 main members of Judgment 7, and each of them fits an anime trope: the protagonist and assistant director Reiji Gozen is your typical ‘light novel’ plain everyday guy who tries too hard to be a nice guy, the airheaded Yuno who is an assistant script writer seems to be a cheerful outgoing girl (but is hiding a dark secret), her hot headed sister Asano is a tomboy and BGM composer who is inexplicably tone deaf and ‘unfortunate’ in many other ways, the dark brooding Natsumi who is the graphics designer and who is initially unfriendly and cold, Iruka is the delusional ‘man-pig’ who is an obese perverted script writer and has a tendency to yell crazy phrases, Owari is the main genius programmer of the group and an unbashed pervert, and finally the childish Tatiana who is a child prodigy and secondary programmer of the group. All of these characters, although stereotypical, have their own arcs in the plot and each of them are distinctly unique. I have to say that I am quite pleased with how the game distinctly separates them, even if they are unoriginal tropes

the Main members of Judgement 7


This is a visual novel so there’s minimal interaction. There’s specific points in the game where you will either have to pick an option from among several (less common), or choose a line to say to a character as it flashes by the screen (more common); if you miss a line or choose the wrong line it could affect who your character gets close with, although the only meaningful thing you get from that are different scenes and graphics for the gallery; this is also the main incentive for replay value. There’s nothing especially interactive like in Root Letter or Danganronpa. I have not come across any ‘game overs’ like I did in other visual novels – but there are several points where I thought I did – and thats why its important to keep going no matter what. This isn’t a dating sim so there’s no R rated stuff happening and besides the lewd jokes and a certain NPC at the beginning of the game, nothing too erotic. There is one particular violent scene that happens that shocked me, so watch out for that.


The game is really colorful and makes use of lots of bright colors. Those of you who have been to Asakusa in Tokyo will see lots of familiar scenery. Some of the enemy designs are quite unique and disturbing even. The graphics are presented well here.

One of several lighthearted scenes in the game


The BGM is quite decent, and you’ll hear happy cheerful music, as well as tense music and sad music during the appropriate scenes. It’s not to dissimilar to what I heard on Steins Gate, so I’m satisfied with that. The voice acting is actually quite superb, especially Iruka and his crazy phrases.


Pros: Nice graphics, nice audio/voice acting, plot twists(!), characters all have their own arc and are distinct

Cons: Plot is a little derivative of Matrix/Steins Gate, characters follow typical anime tropes, perverted jokes/character traits seem very out of place sometimes and may turn off some

I’d give it a solid 7/10 – its worth checking out if you are into sci-fi visual novels, but don’t expect anything that will blow your mind

So far, two billion dollars has been pledged to restore Notre Dame Cathedral. Some people say there are more important ways that money could be used to improve people’s lives. Which side of the issue is right?

It’s a little big frustrating for me, personally.

Not so long ago, I lost my life savings in a crypto currency exchange scam. Software Engineer Loses Life Savings in Quadriga Imbroglio in fact this is the first article you will see when my name is Googled. over $500k I lost.

And yes, while I do admit errors of judgment, this wasn’t the typical investment loss where you ‘only invest what you can afford to lose’ in this case I was trying to get my money from Canada back to the US and I was seeking a way to do it without paying commission. So what was a “clever” move I thought at the time – why not use crypto currency to do it? – turned out to be a disaster.

I only kept bitcoin in my account for less than 30 seconds. I sold it immediately to CAD (Canadian Dollars) and asked to withdraw my money to my bank account. QuadrigaCX (the crypto exchange) kept lying to me telling me oh you’ll get your money within a few weeks after this CIBC lawsuit is done. and I believed them. I kept waiting, and waiting. Until BAM Jan 31 comes along – and they declare they have been insolvent for a long time.… they scammed me and over 100k other users.

What does that have to do with the Notre Dame Cathedral issue? Well on Binance, they had a donation fundraiser for it.

Now there’s no problem with this – except that I figured, since the crypto community apparently have millions to donate to the wealthy Catholic Church who already have billions of dollars in donations already – maybe they could spare a couple grand for the QCX users who lost their money in the crypto exchange scam?


No sympathy at all. Apparently the crypto community sees us QCX victims as ‘since we put our money in a crypto exchange, we deserve to lose it all’. That’s kind of ironic considering these comments are from the Binance community who themselves use a crypto exchange to hold their coins.

r/Buttcoin – Butter loses life savings of $420,000 USD while trying to convert it to Canadian Dollars using QuadrigaCX

^There’s an entire Reddit thread devoted to making fun of me and my losses.

My faith in humanity decreases everyday. These are the assholes who will apparently save a burning building but NOT save the people inside the burning building. That’s the sad reality. Now I understand how homeless people must feel – these wealthy patrons donating millions of dollars to charities but will not spare a single cent for the humans they see suffering in front of them. Shows you just how cruel reality is.

Edit: it seems that some people missed the point of this post. I was asking for a donation. I wasn’t forcing people to give me money. I wasn’t trying to feel entitled to any of their money. I don’t expect others to bail me out of a stupid investment decision. Do not victim blame please. (Thats why I disabled comments on my youtube video about this because everyone blamed me, the victim. I always find it funny that when a big organization asks for money people are ok with it, but when I ask for money I am being selfish and greedy. What the heck?)
The point of this post is to highlight the hypocrisy of people who feel like they are being all Good Samaritans helping rebuild the cathedral or donating to some charity and then as soon as an actual person (not organization) needs help they turn their back on them and wont even spare a single penny. That’s all. And sure it’s their money and they can do whatever they want with it, but don’t talk about yourself as if you are such a good angel for helping out people in need, donating to all these charities when you know thats a lie. You gave money to big organizations like UNICEF, United Way, Salvation Army etc but when an actual person in need came up to you you turned them away. That’s what I hate.