Worst Financial year ever

Everything I touch turned to dust this year. I’m still on my anti-depressant medication because otherwise I would have killed myself by now. Seriously. Let’s count the ways.

-in Jan, Korea had the crypto premium at 40%. I didn’t make use of the crypto account my gf made for me, and the premium is now completely gone.
-In Jan, I had a gain of 50k on my crypto. I didn’t sell or take profits. Now I’m down 170k. That’s a swing of 220k. +50 to -170.
-In Feb, the only ICO I invested in last year at $1.10 each debuted at $4 each. I could have sold right then and there and took $30k profit but of course I didn’t. I kept holding, and now this month I sold it at $0.90 each. Yup, I lost $2k when I could have been up $30k.
-In Jan/Feb I invested in a lot of stupid risky ICOs – over 20 of them. I thought if even ONE of them did a 10x I could make up for the other ones. Nope, turned out ALL of them except two went down 80-90% and the two that made me money only went up 50%. That hardly makes up for my losses. I’m down 37 ETH on that.
-In Jan/Feb I took out 3 loans to average down for a total of 85k + 5k in origination fees/interest. And… the market went down 70% since then. So yeah, that was stupid as well.
-I sold off all my stocks at the beginning of the year to put all into crypto. The AMZN/TSLA/NVDA stocks I sold subsequently went up 50%+ and crypto went down 70%. FML.
-In Apr/May I got scammed 1.5ETH by people pretending to be admins on telegram.
-In Apr I lost $2300 shipping a package because I didn’t use the USPS Priority mail and it didn’t have tracking to Canada. Buyer complained, I had to pay it back since I had no way of proving it was delivered.
-Worst timing ever. I sell EOS and ETC, a few days later it goes up 20%. I sell BITG literally the next day it jumps up by 50%. Why? why does this happen to me?
-In June I put a lot of my money into masternode coins to try and stabilize. I sold off a lot of coins at the bottom because I wanted to make some stable income. Well guess what, those coins are up 30-40% now, and my masternode coins are down 70%. Of course. One of them even went down 90%. I lost over 2 BTC on those. Even when I am trying to stabilize I end up losing money.
-In June when I was trying to get my place renovated, the movers lost my $1000 camera. Seriously, wtf? I can’t even get something as simple as moving my items done without losing money???

So yeah (and don’t forget my gf broke up with me early in the year, my job gets more and more tedious and I’m on meds now) this is easily the most horrible year I’ve had in recent memory. Please, please let this year end soon. Last year was boring but I was at least steadily gaining money. This year, 1/3rd of my net worth is gone, and everything I try to do to get it back only loses me more money. What is happening to me? I must be the anti-Midas touch. I even lost my friends money as I got them into the same masternode coins. My only saving grace is I really hope my apartment sells for above market value to at least make back for some of my losses…

Updates – am I getting better?

A few months ago, I had an anxiety attack that really scared me, I wasn’t breathing well, couldn’t sleep, had chest tightness and palpitations and I was scared that I had a heart attack, so I went to the doctor and cardiologist to take a look – well good news is that it wasn’t heart related and I’m in good health it was just caused by stress and anxiety – partly due to crypto crashing and partly due to breaking up with my gf. I took anti-depressants and am still taking them, and I seem to be getting better.

Safe to say this year has not been good to me so far. I am filled with regrets from not selling my crypto at the beginning of this year. I had the chance to book a $50k profit + send it over to Korea which had a premium on crypto at that time to make another 30-40% profit. Instead I doubled down on my risk, took out 3 loans and attempted to catch a falling knife – and now I’m down $100k+ on my investments. On top of that I lost $2300 because I re-sold a Chanel bag online and forgot to ship the package priority and when it went to Canada, buyer complained they didn’t receive it, I couldn’t refute that claim because it didn’t offer tracking to Canada, and had to give that money out of my own pocket. I also lost a $1000 Camera+Lens because the Renovation movers misplaced it somewhere. In addition to that I was scammed 1.5 ETH ($1200 total) and none of the ICOs I invested in made any money for me – on average I lost like 60-80% when it debuted. All these money issues were a major cause of my depression and anxiety these days.

So good news is I am still getting over that crypto loss (I am still losing a lot but oh well… its just money.. ill make it back), and I’m trying to focus on other things like how to make back that money. However, bad luck strikes again! I was in the process of trying to purchase 1000 GIN to setup a GIN masternode (GIN COIN) and sent it to Crypto-Bridge which was the ONLY exchange where I could purchase it – and lo and behold just THAT day they had an issue with BTC deposits and mine got stuck – been waiting for 5 days so far and no sign of me getting that money. Meanwhile price of GIN has gone up 40%. FML. Seriously I have the worst timing ever or this year really hates me in terms of finances.

In other news, I had to fork over an additional $25k to renovate my apartment and hopefully that sale goes well. I’ve had enough financial problems this year so I hope that’s the one thing that I might actually get in my favor. I am probably going to work for another 2 months… I don’t like my job but my financial issues have forced me to continue working longer than expected.

I also play a lot of video games these days, of course. Far Cry 5 is a great one that I continue to play with my friend these days, as well as some good old school Gunbound as well. In addition I’ve been playing this awesome cyberpunk game with talking dogs and robotic lolitas and all that great stuff in a game called VA1-HA11-A Cyberbunk bartending action and the game is one of the best visual novel type games I’ve played (right next to Stein’s Gate which is hands down the best one I’ve played so far)

VA1-HA11-A on PS Vita
VA1-HA11-A on PS Vita

In addition I’ve obtained a lightsaber! Yes Saberforge has taken 4 months(!) to finally make my Bane Mk II Count-Dooku style curved hilt lightsaber and yes it looks great and it’s awesome.

Saberforge Bane MkII Lightsaber
Saberforge Bane MkII Lightsaber

June 2018 (Final SF) gadget update!

Every 6 months I do an update on the state of my gadgets and what I use


Lenovo Thinkpad TP25

The 25th anniversary edition of the ThinkPad is almost a perfect balance a laptop as you can get. It doesn’t have the OLED display or convertibility of the X1 Yoga, and its not meant for heavy gaming or workloads (which is what I use my Alienware for), but it is still one of the most balanced laptops. Let’s see the comparisons here.

-compared to Razer Blade / MSI Stealth / Gigabyte Aero / other slim gaming laptops – the TP25 obviously does not match the power aspect but makes up for it by being lighter and having better thermals as well as business features like WWAN and removable battery.
-compared to Porsche Design Book One and Microsoft SurfaceBook 2 – the TP25 is not a hybrid and you cannot detach it and use it as a tablet – but it does have way more ports and business friendly features. Also it is about $500 cheaper than either of those laptops.
-compared to XPS 13 / Asus Zenbook / HP Spectre / X1 Carbon / other premium ultrabooks – the TP25 is not as thin and light as some of those but makes up for it with its array of ports, business features and dedicated graphics.

The TP25 is almost the perfect laptop:
-3.5lb weight – perfectly portable
-three input options (touchpad, trackpoint and touchscreen)
-fingerprint reader, removable battery and WWAN – crucial business features
-retro 7 row keyboard and trackpoint – a feature not found in virtually any other modern laptop. The keyboard is the best in the business.
-16GB RAM and 512GB SSD – this is top end features
-i7 7th gen CPU and Nvidia 940MX graphics – sure its not the latest 8th gen processors or MX150 – but its still way better than integrated graphics and beats most business laptops in its size
-14″ 1080p IPS – yeah its not the 1440p OLED like the X1 Yoga but it is still a touchscreen. 4:3 aspect ratio would be nice but thats a pipe dream (that itch is scratched by my iPad Pro anyways).
-a perfect array of ports. 3.5mm combo jack, full size SD, T3, HDMI, 3 USBA ports, full size Ethernet. The only thing arguably missing is miniDP and VGA but thats handled by the T3 port anyways. Plus a mechanical docking port as well.

Microsoft Surface Book

This has replaced my Lenovo Thinkpad X1 Yoga as my main convertible / multimedia laptop. Why? Well it weighs only slightly more (3.6lbs vs 3.1lbs for X1 Yoga), and loses the OLED screen, but makes up for it by being way more powerful (CPU is about the same, but GPU is way faster with the 965M, RAM is double with 16GB and storage space is triple with 512GB SSD), and better battery life due to not using an OLED screen, and a slightly higher resolution (3000×2000 vs 2560×1400), and the tablet detaches in addition to having the same modes the Yoga did. The OLED screen sucked the battery life big time, which gave the X1 Yoga I had very limited use, as the main point of having that screen was to watch movies on the go but if it can’t handle 2 full length movies then what’s the point? It also loses some ports (one USB, HDMI is missing) in exchange for full size SD. That’s ok, because the TP25 is the laptop I do most of my business on, which has all the ports I need, and I have USB3/C docks anyway. Oh, and the 3:2 display is a nice plus (much better than 16:9 for reading text)

Alienware 15 R3

This is my main gaming and VR computer now, replacing my aging HP Envy Beats 14 and hefty Asus G751. I decided I wanted a 15 inch because of its lightness and portability, yet its still powerful enough to have a GTX 1070, power my Oculus Rift (VR ready), hooks up to my external monitor, plays all the latest games, and looks great at home on a laptop stand. Also I can connect the Alienware graphics amp to pump up the graphics even more in the future.

Macbook Pro 13 (2016)
My replacement for my Mac Mini as a programming/portable computer. It’s light (3lbs) and runs macOS making it great for development and the lack of ports is made up by a USBC hub.

Thinkpad P70
The Thinkpad P70 is the replacement for my dying Asus G751 as my secondary gaming laptop and workstation. It has an astounding 12 ports (almost as much as the most port heavy laptop I ever owned the Dell M4800), and is currently my main computer as the 17 inch screen gives me great real estate for doing crypto trading and watching videos. It’s also perhaps the most traditional Thinkpad out of the P, X and T series. It’s also lighter than the Asus I had, weighing only 7lbs compared to the 9.5lbs my Asus weighed – and is even lighter than my 7.5lb Alienware!

10.5 iPad Pro

The iPad Pro has replaced my aging iPad Air (which easily is the oldest device I use frequently). Part of the reason why I got it is because it has the capability to be a light portable travel companion. Yes I have the Macbook Pro too – but the iPad Pro is basically a hybrid computer that is both a tablet and a laptop – while it has a mobile OS – multitasking has improved a lot in iOS 11. Its not going to be my main device but as a travel device its great. It has a splendid 4:3 aspect ratio which is better for reading documents and webpages and has LTE (which is WWAN) so don’t need to use my phone hotspot, plus paired with the Brydge keyboard I have it does a neat looking Macbook Pro impression. Plus its way cheaper (I got it for $700 total with the keyboard) compared to Surface Pro or Eve V.

Google Pixel 2
Making an already great phone even better. It looks almost the same – except the internals got huge upgrades. It has the best smartphone camera in the business and it got water resistant as well. Shame about the headphone jack but thats why I use the Xperia as well.

Essential Phone
This phone has probably the best design and build quality out of any phone I’ve touched. I got this mainly because I was paranoid about losing the Google Auth keys on my Pixel 2. However, it turns out that the Pixel 2 camera is really the only thing I miss about it! I like this phone better in almost every other way.

Sony Xperia XZ1 Compact
My replacement for my iPhone SE and Xperia Z3C as a small (4.6″), compact water-resistant phone. I’ve been waiting for a good replacement for a small powerful phone for a while now and Sony has finally delivered! This has also replaced my Sony Walkman NWZA17 as my primary music player because – why not? It has all the features built in already only its running Android, its bigger and the battery life isn’t quite as good – but its fine enough. So I went from Xperia Z3C to Pioneer XDP to Walkman back to Xperia again…


Monster Gratitude Earphones
My main pair of earphones for listening on the way to work / at work – tuned by one my favorite bands, Earth Wind and Fire!

Audeze EL-8O

These are my main headphones.. open back planar magnetic headphones, replacing my old Audio Technia ATH-M50X for studio recordings (using the Focusrite Scarlett 2i2 as a recording interface, Shure MV51 as my mic and FL Studio as my DAW) and hooking it up to a Brave Audio Ocean tube amp for listening to those sweet sweet high res files 🙂

Sony MDR-1000X
These are my main closed back wireless/noise cancelling headphones which replaces my Denon MM400 (which were stolen at work) and my Bose Quietcomfort 25s (which broke). Compared to the Sennheiser Momentum Wireless and Bose Quietcomfort 35s, The sound quality is comparable to the Sennheisers but the noise cancellation is better. The noise cancellation is on par with the Bose and the sound quality is better, but its slightly less comfortable. Plus I got the Sonys for much cheaper so its win-win all around! Plus it works well with my Sony Walkman + Xperia devices!

Bose Soundlink Revolve
This is my portable bluetooth speaker, replacing my Creative Soundblaster Roar 2. It is smaller than the Roar 2, although it lacks alot of the Soundblaster features it makes up for it by looking and being very simple.

Creative SoundBlasterX Katana

Now used as my computer speakers for my Alienware. It’s the first soundbar designed specifically for computer use. RGB lighting, bluetooth, 7.1 virtual surround and a bunch of other options – what’s not to love?

Sony Dolby Atmos HT-ST5000 Soundbar

These have replaced my Klipsch Promedia 2.1 speakers as this is a 7.1.2 Dolby Atmos soundbar that recreates full range sound with classic Sony styling. The Subwoofer is a beast, the soundbar is a beast, and it has built in Chromecast and Spotify streaming too! I like soundbars because they are compact and easy to setup and overall better for an apartment/condo. I don’t like to live in a big house (where I would probably need to have a full 5.1 surround sound setup + receivers).

Klipsch the Three

This speaker is really cool and retro looking especially with the Ebony wood finish, and pairs well with my Google Home (using Chromecast audio) and my Fluance record player to play some nice vintage tunes!

Yamaha TSX-B72

Yamaha TSX-B72
Yamaha TSX-B72

This is my alarm clock radio that I use by my bedside to wake me up each morning 🙂 and yes it has bluetooth and can charge my phone too.


Sony A6000
My DSLR camera for serious video making which has replaced my Nikon D5100.. it is much lighter easier to carry, and better video quality. I also replaced my Samyang 24mm T/1.5 cine lens (which was bulky) with a great quality and lighter Sony Zeiss 24mm F/1.8 lens. works great.

Sony Action Camera AS300
Replaces my Sony Music Video recorder and GoPro Hero 3 as both my action camera and my wide angle camera that I can use for blogging, travel videos, action videos, etc and has optical image stabilization which no other action camera has! Also waterproof/dustproof as well and quite small, making it great for situations where my Osmo+ would be too heavy.

My go to camera for taking cinematic walking shots, travel video, and completely replaces any camcorder. The Plus model now has optical zoom capabilities with it too.

DJI Mavic Air
My replacement for my DJI Phantom 4 Advanced – sure its not as stable and the camera isn’t as good but the portability was really necessary as I was moving out of the US and the Phantom 4 took up an entire backpack whereas the Mavic Air folds up neatly and can fit into a small purse.

Main Computer collection
10.5″ 2228×1668 – iPad Pro – Apple A10X, 4GB RAM, 64GB Flash, 7MP f/2.0 camera, 2lbs, iOS 11, 2 ports: headphone, lightning – main tablet
13.3″ 2560×1600 – Apple Macbook Pro 13 – 6th gen Core i5, Iris Pro 540, 8GB RAM, 256GB SSD, 3lbs, macOS, 3 ports: 2 USBC, headphone, 3lbs – secondary portable laptop / main programming laptop
13.5″ 3000×2000 Microsoft Surfacebook – 6th gen Core i7, GTX 965M, 16GB RAM, 512GB SSD, 3.6lbs, Win 10, 5 ports: 2 USB3, miniDP, SD, headphone – main multimedia / portable laptop
14.1″ 1920×1080 – Lenovo Thinkpad TP25 – 7th gen Core i7, GTX 940MX, 16GB RAM, 512GB SSD, 4lbs, Win 10, 8 ports: 3 USB3, HDMI, T3, SD, headphone, Ethernet, 3.5lbs – main business laptop
15.6″ 1920×1080 – Alienware 15 – 6th gen Core i7 quad, GTX 1070, 16GB RAM, 2TB SSD, 7lbs, Win 10, 8 ports: 2 USB3, 2 USBC, HDMI, miniDP, Ethernet, headphone, 7.3lbs – primary gaming laptop
17″ 1920×1080 – Lenovo Thinkpad P70 – 6th gen Core i7, Quadro M3000M, 32GB RAM, 2TB HDD, 7lbs, Win 10, 12 ports: 4 USB3, 2 T3, HDMI, miniDP, Ethernet, headphone, SD, Expresscard – secondary gaming laptop & workstation

Main Phone collection
4″ 1136×640 – Apple iPhone SE – Apple A9, 2GB RAM, 64GB Flash, iOS 11, 12MP f/2.2 camera, headphone, lightning – secondary camera phone
4.6″ 1280×720 – Sony Xperia XZ1 Compact – Snapdragon 801, 2GB RAM, 16GB Flash, Android 8, 20.7MP f/2.0 camera, headphone, microSD, microUSB, IP68 – main music player / secondary phone
5″ 1920×1080 – Google Pixel 2 – Snapdragon 835, 4GB RAM, 64 GB Flash, Android 8, Dual 13MP f/1.9 camera, USBC – main phone
5.7″ 2560×1310 – Essential Phone – Snapdragon 835, 4GB RAM, 128B Flash, Android 7, Dual 13MP f/1.8 camera, USBC – main phone

Other devices

Video game systems: PS3, PS4, PSTV, Nvidia Shield Pro

Handheld game systems: Cybiko Xtreme, Nokia Ngage, PS Vita, New Nintendo 3DS, Nintendo Switch, GPD Win 2, Nvidia Shield Portable, PSP Go, Xperia Play, GPD XD+

UMPCs: GPD Pocket, Toshiba Libretto W100, Vulcan Flipstart, Sony Vaio UX280, Sharp Netwalker, OpenPandora, Fujitsu UH900, Fujitsu U820, OQO Model 2

Backup Laptops: Onkyo DX (duals screen netbook), ThinkPad X240 (Win 7), Thinkpad X61 (Win XP), Dell Latitude D600 (Win 98), Asus G751 (spare gaming laptop)

Smartwatches: Huawei Watch, Pebble Time Steel, Fossil Abacus, Neptune Pine

Tablets: Sony Tablet P, iPad Air, Lenovo Flex 20

PMPs: Philips PMC, iPod Nano, MS Zune, Creative Zen vision m, Pioneer XDP100, Archos 7

Flip Phones: Lenovo A588, Motorola Razer, Samsung Alias 2

Vertical Sliders: Sony Ericsson W995, Nokia N95

Horizontal Sliders: HTC Dream, HTC Touch Pro 2, MS Kin 2, Sony Mylo 2

Unique form factor: HTC Universal, Motorola Flipout, Nokia E70, HTC Advantage 7500, Sharp Sidekick, Nokia E90, Jelly Phone, Blackberry KeyOne

PDAs: Palm TX, Sharp Zaurus, Sony UX50, Zipit Z2, Casio BE300, Sharp YO180P, HP iPAQ 210, Psion 5MX

Unique OS: Amazon Fire Phone, ZTE Open C, Samsung Z1, HP Pre 3, Blackberry Porsche 9981, Blackberry Passport, Nokia Lumia 1020, Intex Aquafish, Nokia N810, Nokia N900, Nokia E7, HP Elite X3

Displays: Mobile Monitor 2 Go, Royole Moon, DJI Goggles, Oculus Rift

Cameras: Sony HDR-AS300 Action Cam, DJI Osmo+, Sony A6000, DJI Mavic Air

Headphones: Master and Dynamic ME03 (earphone), Monster Gratitude (earphone), Fender FXA5 (IEM), Klipsch X20i (IEM), Sony MDR1000X (wireless/NC/closed), Audeze EL8 (planar dynamic/open air)

Speakers: Yamaha TSXB72, Creative SoundBlasterX Katana, Klipsch The Three, Polk Audio Hampden, Bose Soundlink Revolve, Sony Smart Bluetooth Speaker SP60, Google Home Mini, Sony HTST5000

Misc Audio Electronics: Brave Audio tube headphone amplifier, Creative E5 Soundblaster DAC/amplifier, Behringer Xenyx Q502 Mixer, Focusrite Scarlett 2i2 USB recording interface

Microphones: Shure MV88, Shure MV51, Shure SM58, MXL50

Storage: 1 Synology DS412+, 2 Synology DS416j, 1 Synology 416slim (48TB all in RAID 1)

Keyboards: Logitech Orion G610, Aorus Thunder K3, Microsoft Sculpt Ergonomic Keyboard, Lenovo Wireless

Mice: Logitech Proteus Core G502, Asus Gladius, Microsoft Sculpt Mouse, Lenovo Wireless, Razer Deathadder, Microsoft Surface Mouse